As I lay here in a darkened bedroom with my little fairy sleeping on me, my mind wanders to this time last year and the months that followed.
I found out I was six weeks pregnant in mid July but really found out I was pregnant on a warm July 6th morning.
Having a baby was never something I yearned for. In fact, I was quite sure I never wanted one.
Decisions that you think you’ve laid in stone can sometimes become those etched on a seashore that wash away with a big wave and leave a clean slate.
Visions of a brighter marital future made me overturn my own decision. It seemed like the exciting next step - establishing a family.
Oh! The pregnancy was exciting and more. I’m so very grateful to have had a beautiful experience in pregnancy in this one life that I have. All the way up until the end. The end, a placental abruption, took some of the initial smooth journey out - took a lot of it out.
Of course, I got lucky with it by not having to deal with morning sickness and back aches. The restless leg got me though.
Beyond all of this, those eight months will always be emblematic of a time of hope and happiness. I call my baby my saviour. She saved me and brought me boundless joy.
A raging pandemic and a baby on the way made me celebrate every little moment. Walks on the nearby trail, food pickups, festival celebrations in my own small way to start new traditions with this new family member, all with the common goal of having a healthy little one in mind form cherished memories now.
The baby project is the biggest project I’ve embarked on in my life. It demands every minute of your attention and unwavering commitment. Yet, in all of that work it extracts from you, it brings you joy, optimism and hope ten-fold.
All I did during my pregnancy was eat nutritious food for the baby and then some junk food for me, rest every time felt I like it, kept myself entertained with television shows and kept myself happy.
As my little princess wriggles and adjusts herself on my lap, I send another prayer of thanks for all the blessings come our way and settle back in the pillows behind me with a thought that I will forever hold these memories dear.
